Getting sick. Had a crap day. Again. Found out that my little hospital stint is going to cost me over $1700, and the 6 month payment plan, added to the rest of my monthly bills (rent, phone, storage unit, credit card) shoots up to more than I actually MAKE in a month. I am feeling screwed, and dejected, and oh so low. You guys, I have been this way since September, when all this crap started, and it has gone downhill ever since. I don't even know what to do about this anymore, other than throw myself off the roof, and really, I'd just break a leg or something and add MORE hospital bills. So instead, I am huddled in bed, feeling extreme amounts of self pity (please, bare with me), and indulging in cups and cups of tea and Criminal Minds dvds. ><;; (At least I giggled over the Somebody's Watching ep. Oh, the muse is being talkative now. ><;; So funny though.)

F-list, beloved f-list, tell me one good thing that happened to you today. If I can't have a decent time, I want to know that you guys, my friends, at least had something to be glad about. Because I am always glad about you. ♥

[edit 7:45pm] Tarot Card Of The Day:
7 of Swords - Lack of Purpose
A confusion of options causes goals to become confused. To go in circles or waste time. A need for assistance and guidance goes unanswered.
Eff you, =P
I AM TWENTY-SIX YEARS OLD. PLEASE TO NOT BE TREATING ME LIKE I'M YOUR DISOBEDIANT TEENAGER. -_- Where the fuck is my apartment? I wonder if I could get a better rate with my old apartment complex since it seems people are now negotiating rent prices here... -_- So fucking annoyed. SO FUCKING ANNOYED. K thx. Now I'm too pissed to go downstairs and eat, and thus must remain in my tiny cramped bedroom, hungry and FUCKING ANNOYED. (It bares repeating, fo sho.)

Cheer me up, f-list? *flops*
My father is a fucking tool. That is all.

...well, not totally all. My friends are my family, and there are a few that I consider "blood" and they mean more to me than anyone I just happen to be related to. I was not born into this close-knit family, and I am most definitely the black sheep on both sides. I have little to no real emotional connection to my father (and, I guess in his defense, he has little to no emotional connection to me, so it all sort of evens out =P) other than anger and disgust. There are times when I can tolerate him, though. Mostly, I just hope to never turn into what he is, which is distant, close-minded, and frankly, a huge asshole. /gets off soapbox

In other news, I talked to my co-worker and cleared the air between us. Made sure she knew that what she had said a couple days ago was NOT COOL, NOT EVEN A LITTLE BIT, and explained a few things to her. So at least there's that. This has been a long fucking week, and I am ready for the weekend. *flopsover* Srsly, it's like when work is slow, people need to make up drama just to have something to do. I AM SO DONE WITH THIS, PEOPLE. Just act like freakin' adults, FOR ONCE, oh my GOD, REALLY.


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